i need a new life!

i dnt mean to whine and moan on my blog but it's how i feel right now!

i hate alot of things that im doing right now..mainly my job!

i've been moved to my flagship center in the U.K which i thought would be a good move for me.

But i was so wrong, that center is so messed up, i've been there for just about a week and im dreading going back!

life is just long for me now!

And i feel like im not where i need to be, or where i am right now is definately not helping me with where i want to be in the future!

which boils down to the question.

WHERE THE FUCK DO I REALLY WANNA BE, OR WHAT THE FUCK DO I WANNA DO?!?!

ppl can say yeh im young....i got loadsa a time!

STOP im young but im fucking ambitious man, i wanna make something of myself!!!!!

had a convo with a dear friend, who's going outta the country for quite a bit, to do some soul searching...

this hit me, cos....

1 argh another close friend is leaving me

2 cos when i hinted or gave him the impression that i needed to do just that, he said i dnt need to soul search.....

i do......i need to know what i want, thats y i cnt move...cos i have no idea where i'll be moving to!

sorry for the rant!

but thank you for reading!

update u soon with my bloody life!

Neglected? ah well its my blog not urs!

yeh i needed abit of time for important things
but im lying here right now in my bed
covers curled under my feet.......feet still cold as a mutha fug
tupac blazin' on my bose system frm my ipod

a million things running through my head
feels like i have alot to do, but i dnt know y im lying here and not doing anything
i havent even got anything to blog about
just about my wotless doings
some whack tune is playing......erm.....y is this on my ipod?

im lacking something real bad!
but i dnt know what it is
i even called yankee.lol.booty call
no can do.lol.daym!
didnt think that was it either.


argh.
nix fix up
i need a J, yezzzzziiiiiirrrrdddd a nice fat joint.
ummm with a cup of tea!
and some Bob Marley

o yeh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 'myworldisgoinglala'

o shoooooot i know y i feel like this now.
i have a blood test tomorrow
shitting myself!
i hate needles!
not looking foward to it at all.

ready for one sleepless night, lying in the dark, cold and thinking about needles.
argh!
i think im gonna turn the heater on tonight so that heat knocks me the fuck out!!

anyway enough stupidness frm me!
adios amigos!

p.s remember. God Is Blessing you regardless! just accept.dnt reject!