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21yrs old-ima Londonah ima ima londonah-filipino heritage still-full time worker-shoe/bag/music lover------God Fearing! yo i was neva good at this kinda thing! =D

Friday, 21 November 2008

something thats been going thru my mind lately

sorry i haven't touched my blog in so long
when i tell you BUSY is not even the word to justify!

anyhow, i have a younger boy cousin, he's 17 i think or 18, anyway i have mad love for him, he's actually not my blood cousin, his mum is married *kinda* to my uncle. but i've known my cousin since he was lil.....therefore regardless of whatever anyone says or feels or hears..HE IS MY COUSIN! we'll call him 'H'

anyway we know we have eachothers backs however far will live frm eachother and however not so often we see eachother.
lately we've been chatting, now he's the kinda kid who keeps himself to himself, wears dark clothing and always has his head dwn, so when we do speak u know i really wana get in there and see y this kid is so dark! he's been opening up, alot but not enough, i think he doesn't realise that i know much more than he thinks. getting to thep oint of this blog....the other day we were chatting about nightmares, cos he posted one note on facebook, of a nightmare he had, and 'betcha by golly wow' was it disturbing. no exaggeration.

got me thinking about my experiences..
now u can believe what im gonna tell u, or u can think rah this girls nutz!
whichever u choose......i dnt care
if u believe me thank u
if u dnt, hope ur shit scared! *not really* but woteva

....it was a late summer night, and i had just spent the last two hours awake on the phone to a friend....it was 2am and i had work the next day so i had to sleep.
as soon as i got off the phone, i felt i was about to dose off but felt bad vibes in my room, but my eyes could no longer take it and i nod off, half asleep i can hear something shuffling in my room.but my sleepiness is still fighting me, in the space of 3 seconds i feel something/someone on my bed, has gotten on top of me sat on my chest *not a heavy thing* and giving me blows to my head, when im telling you, my head was swinging frm side to side! and i knew fuck its them.....i've always been told when in trouble call on the name Jesus, best believe that name in itself is POWERFUL!
i call...Jesus, i call...Jesus, this thing is still beating the shit outta my face! i think u know, this thing wnt listen or get off with my weak voice no faith screaming Jesus, so with one last authoratative voice i demand get off me in Jesus mighty name! ah finally, it gets off me, im lying there on my bed in shock, i feel it climb off my bed...too scared to look str8 at it, i look at its shadow on my drawers, i see a short thing with messy curly hair.....abit straw like....as it walks it grows in height to about 3/4 of the height of my room. im looking at it now, tall, slim, in a long black cloak like mac, curly long bad weave like hair and its face was a face of a pig. it was looking in my mirror, putting a belt around its neck as a scarf, i blink and its gone!
i sit up, my head is banging, and im shaking with fear.

that night i called my mum to sleep with me....
i've been attacked a few times b4 but never like that.
......and i always wake up in mid action.

got a headache now.

cheerio kidz

Sunday, 9 November 2008

i'll say it loud and proud. i love jojo =D

One two three four
Huh hhhhmmmmm ohhh
I think I could like you
I Already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're taking my hand
Looking into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
get me tonight
I feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Got to satisfy my heart
(Chorus)
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel something happening
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now
But tonight will reveal
(Chorus)
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Bring me some flowers
Conversations for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do ohhhh
I'll be giving all my love to you

Friday, 7 November 2008

Tagging rules.

1. Link to the person who tagged you.

DOPE



2. Post the rules on your blog.

Tagging rules.
1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Write six random things about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them.
5. Let each person know they've been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.




3. Write six random things about yourself.


  • i hate the colour pink, yet everything i own seems to be pink.

  • i love black, i love my black dress, i love my black shoes, i love my black men, i even frikin love my black roundtrees fruit pastilles =D

  • i have an allergy to apple, pears, cherries, peaches, nectarines and strawberries, so much 4 the five a day rule.

  • ppl think im a miserable girl cos i walk around with a serious face all the time, but SERIOUSLY y smile while walking dwn the road. ppl will get scared mate.*not sayin my smile is that terrible, but u know what i mean*

  • i've never had to go to doc/hospital for myself apart frm when i was born.

wow this is hard.lol



  • i hate my job

4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them.

my world is going lala

burns the soul

dear God its me again

Tales and tallies

vixen

icandy21



hey to every1 i tagged sorry if you've been tagged b4!
x

Wednesday, 5 November 2008

fine ima spill some beanz right here =P

so ye as the title says...
i've been so confused lately, as any girl....boy wise....
lets just get things straight first im single =D
so any hot guys in blogland, dat feeling the way this girl writes take me outta my misery and b the knight in shining armour.lol
*cough *cough*
did i just send out an ad.lol
pls excuse my craziness, im at home ill, i took a day off cos seriously i cnt b at working like this...
and im under alot of medication right now.

here we go
yeh so theres two guys in my life at the moment, both from the past and i know i know, its bad but i really really like them both, the problem is i know i should just get up outta the area and not get myself in these situations, but whenever i try to bring myself to it, its like but do i really want him out?
and like the reason y im sticking is totally two different reasons for the both of them, both are over lovely to me, and i know our relationships are totally platonic *kinda*, its just the way things are and are going i feel like they both have the ability to make me fall so hard....again and i just dont how to stop that without hurting myself.
wow i sound like one whiney chick.lol
thing that differentiates the two is that one can hurt me, without knowing and the other one cant hurt me.
surely that means i like one more than the other right? cos feeling like you could get hurt by someone means..... i duno.lol
but then i dnt even know if thats the case..cos the one i think i wnt get hurt by is not because i dnt like them alot its cos i dnt fink he has it in him.
but i duno.lol
can the person even reading understand what im trying to get at?
if u can..
help?
plz
=)

Monday, 3 November 2008

SLACKIN' i know!

sorry guys, i know im slackin' bigtime, i guess i just got bored with the story, u know i had a plan for the ending of yankee on my blog but they way i went on about it with all the parts threw me off!
its annoying cos now the story on my blog is not in sync with whats going on in yankee town today.argh.long story!
plus i've been super busy, as in i have no idea what with but i know i have been.
and im sick.argh.my throat is numb from my coughing as in i cnt feel a damn thing in my throat.
anyhow
im not chatting much sense
but i can tell u this
ive got myself in some what of a pickle!!
i'll b needing you kidz help with my next post..
but im still contemplating on doing it.
i'll b back
x