Cant Say I Didnt Try Pt 3b

as promised, maybe not at home but im at work again and i am BOOOOORRRRRREEEEEED!
so as it goes 3a was 1st tym at his, 3b is first time at mine... oh the joy...hehehe

first off, i live in a COMPLETELY different area to yanx, he lives in east london, and i live on the west side!! ask any1 there is a big difference and not just on gang rivallry.. in the morning i listen to the kensington birds singing, and in the morning he listens to....GUN SHOTS!

so im on the fone to him, he is on his way dwn, he took a train and u can only call at certain times cos of bad reception......but bcos i managed to call him i know he's near....
'yeh so babygirl where do i get off.....'
'i'll meet you at Grove station, i'll b at the bottom of the steps'

now where i live is somewhat of a ghetto in the posh ends of London.....i get to the station...all nervous and shit, just waiting for that train to hit home, and i c my friend sitting down outside d station (my tramp friend) so u kno usual small talk....then i c yanx coming dwn the stairs....i smile, he smiles....puts his arm around my shoulder and as we walk off 'my friend' yells, you better take care of her, she's a lovely girl.......
lovely huh, just lovely, now yanx thinks my mates are tramps! regardless.....this dude still looking at me like i shit out gold! hmmmm.

anyway the walk to my yard frm the station is about 5mins, and the whole time im thinking, daym whats my mama gona say i only told her im going shop, now it looks like i went shop and bought myself one fine ass black man! i really didn't know how she would take it.....i've mentioned him to my mum like 1nce b4 now.......ooops.
so we get in, and i pop my head round the door of the living room, 'hi ma, yankees here' and she gives me those eyes, u know them eyes that could make you break out in cold sweats....
b4 she could say anything yankee walks in the living room, 'goodevening, lovely to meet you' kisses her on both cheeks than shakes my mums bf's hand.
i could tell my mum was like daym....cos she sat there with some cheesy grin on her face!

so we head on into my room, i wanted 2 c his reaction about my room, cos bloody hell it is 1 buff room...
burgandyish walls and ceiling, spotlight dimmers, round bed, satin curtains (same colour as the walls)and a 32inch plasma.

but i didnt get much of a reaction.

so the night went on, we talked, we joked, we laughed, we did have abit to drink, only a lil bit....
boy does JD n Coke make me sleepy, so he puts on a film... PulpFiction
i've never seen it b4 but apperently its good, so we're lying on my bed he's holding me, one arm under my head and the other around my tummy......but we made sure all hands were over the covers cos we both made it clear, none of THAT tonight init. kooooooooooollllll,
and yeh the warmth of his body so close to me, made me knock out.
i mean i woke up about 4tyms, and that bloody film was still playing....how long is that film??

anyway typically i wake up when the film is over.......half alseep and boy dnt know what he was thinking while i was knock out but this guy was jus ready and rearing to go......

things lead onto things... but how i was wishing the Pulpfiction theme song wasn't playing in the background!

that night was amazing, AND amazingly painful at the same time.

brb w/ pt 4

Cant Say I Didnt Try Pt 3a

the long and awaited......my apologies kidz...

.....so frm then on, me and Yanx hit it off =D

the first time i went to his
frm what i remember, he wanted us to go out to some local bar, but i took too long to get ready.lol.....so we ended up jamming at his, watched a movie, i sat there drooling on some hot guy on the screen (daym, what was this actors name again??)

yeh that night i was pretty much keeping myself to myself nothing interesting went dwn....
but he did manage to get me screaming and red faced.lol.......
what i didn't know was that he had sum mad foot fettish, the dude literally took my shoe off....and threw it on the other side of the room.....i was like WTF??
i quickly sat on my foot.lol........not knowing what to expect, cos seriously if he started doing sum mad shit on my feet i wudve freaked out.....dude is still tryna get at them.....and im there with my serious face and tone 'yanx wot are you doing? CAN U NOT PLS'

this made the fucker curious, now he insists on checking out my feet and counting each toe....(he thinks i only have 4 toes)
he manages to push me off my feet, grabs my left foot in the air.....counts and looks at me....and smiles.....nice feet.......NICE FEET all i could say was thanx.
apart frm that he didn't try it on me or anything, cos i absolutely hate....HATE sleeze balls, and when i left he said ' thank you for coming down, i really needed this kinda company' and gave me a kiss on my forehead....i walked off, and b4 i got into the cab he calls out 'hold up nix' i look at him and he walks to the cab and tells me to get home safely.....and i say ok.

i know i was expecting abit more like a romantics sweep me off my feet and into his bed, but nope, im glad the night ended like it did....
he did call me more than a few time while i was in the cab asking me to make a u-turn and back to his, but i was like nah mate.....*hooked* hehehehe

kidz notice how i put the title as part 3a
3b will b done wen i get home, promise, cos yo gurl is at work atm

hope this story aint boring u guyz...let me know

Cant Say I Didnt Try Pt 2

so i decided frm now on, i will put in abit of effort, meaning i'll pick up his calls, so obviously we get chatting, know more about each other ..........he's 24....frm st lucia....has a son....full time job.....got his own place....etc etc..

but its all just talk on the phone which im perfectly happy with.

come november and it's his birthday, and he calls me as im about to go outta Ldn to some outlet for some shopping...=D

and i was like 'Happy Birthday Lovely'

and the boy was touched.lol....when i say he was shocked that i remembered i mean SHOCKED!!......

so i was like ye so what ur 25 now how does it feel?

he gets abit hesitant on the fone....but at the time i think nothing of it.

that night when i got home, yankee calls me and is like' wassup darling?'

i could tell he sounded different, the kinda tone he had when i asked him how it feels to b 25.......lol......so i prepare myself and think, this guy is gonna tell me he 16 aint he......even though he doesn't look anywhere near that age....you get them big ass men who aren't old enuff to get into certain films at the cinema....but look like they have 2 kids and a wife.....so anyway!!

it isn't the worse......i find out he's 30!

no problem

surely though why did he lie in the first place?? then y did he tell me the truth.....

im thinking this guy might be feeling to b more than just calling and chatting on the fone.....and i guessed right.

exchange of convo for the nx few weeks.

him-'babygirl, when do i get to c u?'

me-'sorry im not available....real busy ..'

this as you boys and girls probably all know can get pretty tiring.....

anyway, so every sunday i go to church 7-9, and one sunday i felt to txt a few ppl in my fone book and invite them to church, i was on a mission to winning souls for Christ.....and as i was strolling dwn my long list of numbers a saw yankees name, and i thought.....what the hay......

my txt said.

hey guys, hope to c u 7-9 church Notting Hill, be blessed, Nix

the lazy buggers my friends are, no1 turned up apart frm 2ppl, yup....Yankee and his 2yr old son.

my heart melted!!

1.cos he actually came

2.i love kids, and his son was the cutest lil thing ever

3.daym is Yankee one FIIIIIIINNNNNNEEEEEEE man.

*him and his baby boy had matching leather jackets on.....so cute *

so yep, Yankee has more points added onto my imaginery chalk board in my head.

DAYM

i wish i didn't tell u to fuck off......=(

i know im a muppet!

can't say i didn't try

hey kidz, i need ur help!

so u all know (if you've been reading) that i have lost my phone. But Thank T-mobile i have my sim card back which i recieved last night when i got home! but with none of my numbers....'so sheenz call me pls' =P anyway so when i put my sim card i put it my mums old bruk up fone and it shows i have 8 vmails and countless txtz....duh im loved =D didnt bother listenin to vmails, just wanted to get into bed and sleep!

so im here at work now and i get another vmsg....i think what the hay lemmi c whos tryna call me

...listening......listening.......

'Hi Nicole, this is Joanna from Oasis Please contact me on.......about your account with us.....' listening.....

bills.......

'Nix, its daddy just checking up on u and kuya, love u baby'.......


listening......


last voice msg...


'babygirl calling to let you know i just got paid, dont know if this is still your number, cant say i didn't try, Bless you'

hu dat?


Yankee my Ex
Last Summer.....so me my girls B and J are getting ready for a night out, one of J's friends birthdays...we go to one pub for pre-drinks at a place called 'The Old Explorer' cos at pubs, drinks are cheaper than at clubs.lol......cheapskatez.....any way so slight tipsy and we are ready to hit the club.... due to the lateness and size of our group we were force to go to some rubbish club called Sound........never-the-less my girls know how to have a good time!

couple a drinks dwn we decide its time for us 2 head home, J parts frm me and B......so we are waiting at the bus stop now (cheapskatez agen!)

and these two guys walk up to us.....and honestly speaking i dnt really remember what they looked like but we talk, and we find out that they are club promoters.......so one guy (yankee) goes to me gimmi ur number, i'll get u in loadsa places for free v.i.p....

and d drunk cheapskate i am, is like.....07852............

2 weeks or so later, everything is forgotten about until i get this call, its yankee, im like hu the fudge is yankee, and y is some american dude calling off my fone, then he explains how he got my number and im like....ooooooooo......sorry i was drunk, and i dnt want to go to any clubs.....do u mind not calling again...

that didnt go too well, the guy starts calling me.......quite often......and my 'i dnt wanna go to any clubs' doesnt stop him....so i just stopped answering.

then one time another event popped up, i cant remember what but i needed a venue fast and easy.......daym this yankee, so i call him and he doesn't answer......karma blows!

so i leave a voice msg to let him know the deal so he knows im calling for business and nothing else......

my msg went a little suttin like this..

'hey Yanx.....its Nicole, i was just calling cos i really need a venue tonight for about 20 of my girls...can you hook me up. let me know'

anyway he didn't get back to me.....so i had to make plans on my own......but we sorted!!!

on the way to the club i check my phone 3 miss calls and a vmsg....

'hey shortee, i manage to speak to my boy i got you a booth at CC's every 1 v.i.p you and 4 other girls get in for free the rest only need 2 pay a £5, can't say i didn't try'

after that i was like daym.......do u kno how hard it is to get into a club late in London without paying a fortune!!!! let alone a booth in a club, v.i.p for 20 girls, 5 in free, the rest £5.

he did try so i thought, ok.....koooool......i'll pick up ur calls frm now on!

i'll b back with the rest, so sorry, i just keep on going off on one!

btw this post isn't done....but it's bugging me cos theres jus so much to write about.....i'll b back =D

my day so far...

hey kidz,

im at work right now, and i'd thought id write a blog.

so as you all know my brother is back frm the Philippine Islands, and i've been off work since wednesday, i was initially only suppose to take fri off but i was hit with a bug going around Ldn town, so pissed couldn't keep a crumb down! argh so, frm thurs-till now, i have been spending ridiculous amounts of time with the famo.....(good ridiculous)

which has been real good for me, since i hardly get to spend that quality time with them!

anyway.....

i digress?? hehe sorry ive just been reading alotta blogs lately and this word (digress) has been proved very popular... just really dnt know how to use it in context...

anyway.....

i digress?? hahahahahaha im so sorry.lol

yeh so.lol........this morning i found it MEGA hard to get up, my mum had to walk in2 my room and wake me up...

mama 'nikki its 7........... get up' -in a over tired irritated voice

me 'yes....im awake' -liiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeessssssss!

so daym im late

rush rush rush

in a bad mood

freezing cold

bus takes forever

jump on the bus

cnt find my oyster (buspass)

every1 on the bus is staring at me with impatience

'patience is a virtue' i scream in my head

walk to the back of the bus

where its nice and warm (bcos the seats a right above the engine)

put one foot up on a seat 2 pull up my tights

facety bitch nx to me kisses her teeth

give her attitude back by pulling my tights up with agression

(thats how u know im a lovely girl)

fuckin 'ell ive put a hole in my tights!

*karma*

stick my ipod on

put Christian playlist to switch my mood

it works

i feel happier and lighter

i am a friend of God mate!

so......waiting till i get to the Strand

i get there

i get off

still listening to my ipod

which is on loud

i got a jump in my step now...

'all around,all around,everywhere i look your love is all around!'

i reach CVG (Covent Garden)

outside my building

need to check the time am i early? (walk in with happy face)

am i late (put that sad face on)

i check my pocket for my fone.

wheres my fone?

i check my bag....

daym compartments...

1st compartment - no sign

2nd....still no sign

3rd.....fuck....

ive lost my lovely fone kidz

stupid jump in my step....

and that was just the morning, i dnt plan to continue with the rest of my day..

u guys will get depressed!

funny enough blogging all of that i feel happy

im smiling

im smiling

ur smiling

we smiling

miracles and blessings kidz! miracles and blessings!!

Dedicated to my SISTER frm another MISTER!

I love u and miss you more......hey we really love peace huh?? world peace BITCH!=D

I really cant wait to see you next week 4 lunch.....while we walk the snazzy cobbled streets of Covent Garden!!

HEY!

pls dnt kill me.lol

o yeh bring ur cammy to work and we can do a picture blog...wahyaseh?

hehehe we can do it at night when the fairy lights are out!

im EXCCCCCCIIIIIIITTTTTTEEEEEDDDD!

its looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong over-due sunshine!

Sex, Love and Pain

Hey WOW, i haven't been here in a while....so much has gone on, and i thought i'd do a wrap up with a twist!

First and foremost i apologise for the lack of blogging, even though i probably dont have a collection of viewers, the few that view deserve more than a hit and run....so ima hit.....run.....turn around and hit again =D

Now we all know how me love my bullet points...
so shut and let me shoot!
Hence my title...

SEX

• actively happy
• mutual agreement with sexee
• had a 'scare'
• negative =P

LOVE

• yo God IS love!
• my bro is back, and i cnt show enough love!!
• my fam...esp mum dad n bro...whoa! its still there man!
• love u show/share can change/move ppl.BELIEVE...

PAIN

• less physical more mental 4 me
• in sayin that i've been feeling sick since last thurs!
• im so frustrated about where im spiritually at it hurts!
• ouch, my aunty got a tatt.its soooo sexy!

this isn't a proper post is it? but as i said so much has been happening i don't know how to fit it all in, without boring you all..... hopefully it sorta gives you an insight to whats been going down in nicoles world.

ay 2 ppl who kno me...no questions pls =D